Where I’m Supposed to Be

My life experiences have placed me in a very unique place emotionally and spiritually. A friend recently told me; "God has you exactly where you are supposed to be." later she asked if I believed God makes mistakes. I found myself really struggling with that question, almost as much as I have of my 'understanding' … Continue reading Where I’m Supposed to Be

Remission

I recently saw Dr. Borello for my 6-month check-up and I heard the word again. I looked it up because this terminology sometimes makes me feel like it ‘could last forever’ but to be reminded, the myeloma is still there, M-Spike undetectable… but yet… still detectable? It has been almost 9 years since my initial … Continue reading Remission

So, I hurt my back almost 2 months ago… I suspect the current injury was initiated last summer when I fell on those pool stairs like a toddler just learning how to climb stairs.  The cancer is not doing any damage, but my Golden Girl-esqueness… or the left-over stem-cell transplant procedures have left my body in … Continue reading Weighing In…

Weighing In…

So I just finished the season on Amazon Prime with Reese Witherspoon and Kerry Washington... impressed with the acting, the fairly accurate depiction of a world in the 1990s (choice soundtrack), and the intensity of interactions with the two main characters. I bring it up, because, like most media I consume, I start thinking and … Continue reading “Little fires everywhere”…

“Little fires everywhere”…

I saw Dr Borrello and got another “Congratulations” - hearing news for the 4th year in a row... still feels like winning the lottery. Having multiple myeloma during the COVID time can feel really scary. However, the less I give cancer a thought - the less I feel afraid of it coming back again. I … Continue reading No M-Spike

No M-Spike

Someone told me more than once that they know I am serious, by my very first handshake upon meeting me. I do take handshakes serious. I am glad to hear this is communicated, because often I feel my messages are not clear. Anyway, I was due a bloodwork checkup and a disease percentage check. Honestly, … Continue reading Shaking Hands

Shaking Hands

I hear this statement at least once a day, sometimes more when referring to how I juggle the overwhelming responsibility... "I Don't Know How You Do It." I often reply: Ï just Do it, whatever it is, whatever it takes for a given situation, I don't hesitate, I just do what has to be done." … Continue reading Filming Life

Filming Life

Starting this process with my daughter was scary at first, but it turned into a project that we were both passionate about. I was able to get my daughters perspective and give her mine, and share research I have gotten on recovery and resources. I am able to understand her better, even when I do … Continue reading mother and daughter symbiosis

mother and daughter symbiosis

If you had a choice to be a Rock, or to be Water, which would you choose? What is the strongest? Dr. Wayne Dyer says: “Water is the softest of all things, yet it is the most powerful. The ocean patiently allows all things to flow into it. It is always flexible.” I am the … Continue reading Be the water

Be the water

Today was the first year of my youngest daughters sophomore year of high school. The way she walked into that school today made me drop my jaw. This school looks like a manufacturing plant for politicians, 50 shades of Khaki is the uniform the boys wear, and the girls are just like the wives of … Continue reading Courageous

Courageous