Where I’m Supposed to Be

My life experiences have placed me in a very unique place emotionally and spiritually. A friend recently told me; "God has you exactly where you are supposed to be." later she asked if I believed God makes mistakes. I found myself really struggling with that question, almost as much as I have of my 'understanding' …

Remission

I recently saw Dr. Borello for my 6-month check-up and I heard the word again. I looked it up because this terminology sometimes makes me feel like it ‘could last forever’ but to be reminded, the myeloma is still there, M-Spike undetectable… but yet… still detectable? It has been almost 9 years since my initial …

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So, I hurt my back almost 2 months ago… I suspect the current injury was initiated last summer when I fell on those pool stairs like a toddler just learning how to climb stairs.  The cancer is not doing any damage, but my Golden Girl-esqueness… or the left-over stem-cell transplant procedures have left my body in …

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So I just finished the season on Amazon Prime with Reese Witherspoon and Kerry Washington... impressed with the acting, the fairly accurate depiction of a world in the 1990s (choice soundtrack), and the intensity of interactions with the two main characters. I bring it up, because, like most media I consume, I start thinking and …

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I saw Dr Borrello and got another “Congratulations” - hearing news for the 4th year in a row... still feels like winning the lottery. Having multiple myeloma during the COVID time can feel really scary. However, the less I give cancer a thought - the less I feel afraid of it coming back again. I …

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Someone told me more than once that they know I am serious, by my very first handshake upon meeting me. I do take handshakes serious. I am glad to hear this is communicated, because often I feel my messages are not clear. Anyway, I was due a bloodwork checkup and a disease percentage check. Honestly, …

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How do I express what it is like to live a life that feels so foreign to anything I could have ever imaged for myself? The last several months have been a whirlwind of emotions (nothing new, sadly); but something has changed in the way in which I process them. I have been quite happy …

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I hear this statement at least once a day, sometimes more when referring to how I juggle the overwhelming responsibility... "I Don't Know How You Do It." I often reply: Ï just Do it, whatever it is, whatever it takes for a given situation, I don't hesitate, I just do what has to be done." …

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Starting this process with my daughter was scary at first, but it turned into a project that we were both passionate about. I was able to get my daughters perspective and give her mine, and share research I have gotten on recovery and resources. I am able to understand her better, even when I do …

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If you had a choice to be a Rock, or to be Water, which would you choose? What is the strongest? Dr. Wayne Dyer says: “Water is the softest of all things, yet it is the most powerful. The ocean patiently allows all things to flow into it. It is always flexible.” I am the …

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I wish I could say things just keep getting better and better everyday. I cannot always say that, but I can choose to believe it will get better soon. Not sure how many folks out there have what I like to call alphabet problems? Those that you need acronyms to spell, to keep track, or …

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Today was the first year of my youngest daughters sophomore year of high school. The way she walked into that school today made me drop my jaw. This school looks like a manufacturing plant for politicians, 50 shades of Khaki is the uniform the boys wear, and the girls are just like the wives of …